Humiliation

School Intramurals day. I joined the chess tournament.

Sadly, I lost. Not only once, but I lost all three games I played. What's even worse is that I'm supposed to be the oldest player there.

But I lost, fair and square due to my ineptitude. Which makes me wonder, how the heck did I get in the tournament?

So am I humiliated? Yes, I am. However, I don't consider this as something that should drag me lower. (As if I can join another intrams next year.) Primarily, I just realized that my level isn't as high as I think it is. And better yet, I know that I still can improve.

I gave a good fight. I fought the battle. I lost honestly. That's all that matters.